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Gone Savage For Teenagers With Automatic Weapons and Boundless Love
Created on 2007-01-25 00:57:09 (#12123130), last updated 2009-06-20
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Basic Info| Name: | Neurotic Animal |
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| Location: | Babylon, North Carolina |
BioI am truly a beast. Its true... We all are here... even you!
I have a lot of faults. Most of which are my insecurities. I don't have a high self esteem at all. Though at times it may seem I do. Usually when I'm performing. If I could figure out a way to master that personality in my everyday life I think I could be happier with myself.
Friends that I trust are few and far between. A lot people tend to think others are stupid. And in most cases their correct. In my case, their not. I find most people to be predictable, and it ends up ruining the surprise in the end.
I normally get my hopes up about a lot of things. This is due to the fact I am a highly passionate person. I'm a daydream believer, though not a Homecoming Queen. Then the downside appears. Disappointment hits harder than it does for most. Just as much passion is there when the hopes are free falling.
I can and usually tend to be quite dramatic about most things.
I'm good to talk to, I'm a good friend and I listen. But much like a nice vacation spot, I'm a good place to visit, but you wouldn't want to live here.
People think I'm too hard on myself. Its because I'm just as hard on myself as I am on them. Maybe. I see these faults as challenges that I can't seem to defeat. I've defeated a lot in my life. I've turned some things around to work to my advantage. The one thing I can't seem to figure out is the fact that most people simply just don't care enough to be the people they present themselves to be in the beginning.
People that say they are never going to leave you, leave. People that say they will love you forever, don't. People that say other things that are meaningful and beautiful tend to simply say them because they feel good at the time.
I guess I'm a bit cynical, but honestly I've yet to see the rainbow that others see. I refuse to be ignorant or ignore the facts of life that have led me to these beliefs. If I am to be proven wrong, I surely hope its soon. Else I'll end up in the woods and away from everyone. Waiting for my time to come.
Some people think they can help me. Maybe change my mind about everything. Don't waste your time. If there's one thing I've learned in life, you have to help yourself. NO ONE will ever do it for you.
Some people meet me and think I can help them. Build them up. But there's one thing I've learned about myself. I can tear you down as quick as I bild you up. I'm not a solution or anything remotely close to it. I am simply a confused person that desires a happy life with minimum problems. Even though it feels like I'm a magnet for the shit.
Okay. Don't fool yourself. That's my advice. I just wish I could follow it.
I'd like to meet:
People who are considerate and have integrity. People that aren't self absorbed or narcissistic.
Mature people that do things with the feelings of their loved ones in sight. Those that do not trifle affection.
somtimesyouhavetostealinordertoremember
I have a lot of faults. Most of which are my insecurities. I don't have a high self esteem at all. Though at times it may seem I do. Usually when I'm performing. If I could figure out a way to master that personality in my everyday life I think I could be happier with myself.
Friends that I trust are few and far between. A lot people tend to think others are stupid. And in most cases their correct. In my case, their not. I find most people to be predictable, and it ends up ruining the surprise in the end.
I normally get my hopes up about a lot of things. This is due to the fact I am a highly passionate person. I'm a daydream believer, though not a Homecoming Queen. Then the downside appears. Disappointment hits harder than it does for most. Just as much passion is there when the hopes are free falling.
I can and usually tend to be quite dramatic about most things.
I'm good to talk to, I'm a good friend and I listen. But much like a nice vacation spot, I'm a good place to visit, but you wouldn't want to live here.
People think I'm too hard on myself. Its because I'm just as hard on myself as I am on them. Maybe. I see these faults as challenges that I can't seem to defeat. I've defeated a lot in my life. I've turned some things around to work to my advantage. The one thing I can't seem to figure out is the fact that most people simply just don't care enough to be the people they present themselves to be in the beginning.
People that say they are never going to leave you, leave. People that say they will love you forever, don't. People that say other things that are meaningful and beautiful tend to simply say them because they feel good at the time.
I guess I'm a bit cynical, but honestly I've yet to see the rainbow that others see. I refuse to be ignorant or ignore the facts of life that have led me to these beliefs. If I am to be proven wrong, I surely hope its soon. Else I'll end up in the woods and away from everyone. Waiting for my time to come.
Some people think they can help me. Maybe change my mind about everything. Don't waste your time. If there's one thing I've learned in life, you have to help yourself. NO ONE will ever do it for you.
Some people meet me and think I can help them. Build them up. But there's one thing I've learned about myself. I can tear you down as quick as I bild you up. I'm not a solution or anything remotely close to it. I am simply a confused person that desires a happy life with minimum problems. Even though it feels like I'm a magnet for the shit.
Okay. Don't fool yourself. That's my advice. I just wish I could follow it.
I'd like to meet:
People who are considerate and have integrity. People that aren't self absorbed or narcissistic.
Mature people that do things with the feelings of their loved ones in sight. Those that do not trifle affection.
somtimesyouhavetostealinordertoremember
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